Dear
I don't want you to feel like I'm feeling sorry for myself
It's a shame
I know it's not right to expect something from you, please, I accept
But unfortunately there is no other way.
My life has collapsed and fallen like dominoes, so I'm turning to you for help to make the upcoming holidays better with food, cleaning, paying bills
In 2021, I gathered the courage and said NO to enough psychological, emotional violence. I managed to find an apartment but unfortunately not to arrange it.
I need:
A KITCHEN 3.20
BUNK BED
A BATHROOM A cabinet under the sink. A cabinet above the washing machine
The procedures at the institutions are rigid and too slow and are still ongoing. The Social Welfare Service never treated us as a family in which violence was present, but as a family in which we as parents are highly conflicted.
Despite mental, physical and financial exhaustion, I follow my set goal, my plan - a safe and peaceful life
It's very difficult. Sometimes, unfortunately, I can't do it anymore. I've had enough of everything. I'm tired of everything. Through this helplessness, despair, fear, hopelessness..... Unheard of. Ignorance.
I don't see a way out of social distress.
Sometimes I wonder if there is a place that could save me. A place where I could regain my strength to face the world. A place where there is no more suffering. I just want to be somewhere where pain can't follow me and where no one can hurt me anymore.
I've been struggling with depression since 2019. I've attended various therapies for personal growth, for divorced parents, the counseling center for victims of violence KAPLJICA, eSOS Karitas....
I have a recognized category III disability.
My ex-partner's predictions are coming true, you will experience firsthand what it's like to lose your children. I lost one son, I won't have these two. I will go over the dead bodies if necessary. The children will not be with you and by your side. You know that I can destroy you mentally and financially until the day I die. No social services center, lawyer or help will help you.... you know that I can destroy you mentally and financially.
We still have SHARED PARENTING.
Despite being employed, my income is too low due to long-term sick leave. I struggle from month to month. It's not without debts.
This month I only received 800e in payments. With this I have to pay
a. Electricity 34.92EUR
b. Energy 37.92 EUR
c. Housing company 125.36 EUR
d. Rent: 200
e. TELEMACH 84.00 EUR
f. Alimony 200 EUR
And other monthly obligations, loans in the amount of 130e (this includes a loan for car insurance 38.65, a loan for the purchase of a battery and alternator 31.49, a loan for the purchase of a seat 28.48, a loan for the purchase of a TV 23.29, additional GENERALI insurance 8.88)
I have been without a car since July 2024. A 15-year-old car in disrepair (engine and gearbox). And as if that were not enough, it was destroyed by hail.
The blows keep coming, one after another and there is no end in sight. I am just sinking.
Now I am looking for all possible options to somehow get a car. I can't get a loan. I can't get a lease.
A daily car rental through Avant2Go costs me 45e.
This week I have children. I have to pick them up 15km away. There are no bus connections. There is no train.
Driving from Maribor to Rače. And from Rače back to Maribor it costs me about 18e.
I don't want the children to think that I don't care about them. That I don't have time for them. That they are not important to me....
BPP doesn't belong, because I changed 2 lawyers. I don't have a lawyer.
We have a hearing scheduled for January 2025.
I need 700e by then. I don't know where to get it anymore
Just talking to a lawyer costs me 250e. 1 application, even if I write it myself just to have it checked and corrected, it costs me 490e to complete.
I would like to come home and say to myself that this is my home.
I am always horrified when I think that I lost 15 years of my life because of this, but at the same time I am proud of myself, because I have two wonderful children. And they are the ray in my life that it is worth living, fighting and persevering.
Due to the procedures at the CSD and the court, and especially because of the ex who has an online network, I ask that everything be anonymous
If he finds out, I will be the worst person, mother in the world again
Best regards
Ani from Maribor